If you know me long enough or even take note of me, you should know I am super vain. I love to take self snaps. Well which girl doesn't like to look pretty, I don't really look that pretty in real so.. to have abit of vanity, thus i chose to look pretty in photo. ok worthless post today..

Anyway I'm saying I'm vain cause I want to take the glamour shoots (makeover). I am goin to spend like 200++ for the shoots which only will last for awhile and look pretty for that day. (ok its just the vanity inside me). But I'm still considering due to the huge sum (at least for me) and my guy would nag at me for spending that kind of money. Once I decided I will post.

Its monday again... For god sake why do we have Monday, why can't we have Friday everyday. I know I'm asking alot but when the Fri come I'll feel energetic but when the Mon comes I just feel blue blue cause it will be another 5 more days till the week day. I'm just being greedy and greedy will get me to no where.

Ok back to my weekend and this morning. This morning was hell of busy. My colleague was on urgent leave so I took over his duties. Its an easy job but I was not familar with the cmpanies and I was late this morning so I only left with 1 hr to finish the sales order. I rush and rush but I realise there's only 5 sales order. Which I think I am taking so much time for just 5 sales order.

Back to my weekends. It was not too bad went to geylang on Friday night for dinner with my friends and Sat again for the cruising throught the red light district. I didn't get to see alot of "chicken" maybe they are busy doing their business but its was not too bad though. After the cruise, went around with my bf and his buddies for a drink. Finally went home to take a rest and we did mask before we slept (will show some photos).


On Sunday met up with my friends and went for dinner. The mac milkshakes are back....... YEAH!! I bought a chocolate milkshakes that day, it so remind me of my childhood. Finally the dinner they wanted to go and eat the smelly tou fu at bugis. I was like OH MY GOD but i still went with them cause can't expect them to skip that just because of me. We sat down and order. BUT!!!!!!! YEAH... the shop run out of it. and I was spear from the agony.....

Great days even though it is boring...

I realise me and my guy are getting bored about where to go and stuff, its no longer that fun as before. Maybe the taste of freshness is gone. Hope it won't be gone for good. I always wonder will our love dies off eventually. You know humans are always seek for new and exciting stuff. Once we get bored we will look for someother thing that will excite our lives. Maybe there will be a die when it even goes off or maybe its after our mariAGE. as the saying goes "marriage is the tomb for love". Then I should start make the "mu bei" for our tomb of love. haha. I will engrave the lettering in gold.

"you cant forget your past while I cant see my future. How do we go on from here? We have a start but we need an ending."

Still stuck in office waiting to go home. Since I'm waiting so I decided to fill up my blog with an entry. SO how's each's V day? Nothing special for me but I got a bunch of Rose for the 1st time from my guy. He knew I wanted Roses since its been quite some time since I last receive it. Actually that dumb guy wanted to make it into a suprise by having the flowers sent to my office after my lunch. BUT too bad I'm too smart and I found out about it. Anyway its sweet of him to do that for me as its a great task for my Mr super boring guy.

After my work we met up and had dinner but its long que everywhere. In the end we settle for SUB-way my fav food of all. Lucky there's this ulu subway in tampines if not we have to que till we die of hungry b4 we can have anyfood. Nothing much happen after that as he had to leave for his camp and I headed home. I am a tire piggy as I'm not feeling well too.

These day got into abit on Lucifer and Satan. I have been looking for informations on their story online. Don't worry I'm not goin o convert to cult or Wicca. Just interested in their ancient story against the Roman Catholic. I don't think I need to explain about Satan but Lucifer maybe for some. Luficer is a fallen angel, he used to be a angel an archangel (which means a messenger for god) but due to greed he was banish from heaven and became a fallen angel. Greed is one of the 7 deadly sins or to the bible. i will introduce that 7 deadly sins for my next entry.

ok its knock off time............ that's all for the day....

There's a lot to be said for self-delusionment when it comes to matters of the heart.

Tomorrow will be the day for love, St valentine's day. Romance is in the air, it not only the day for the couple but also for friendship and family ties. Let's take a sniff tomorrow as we would smeel the sweet scent of roses tomorrow. Its a day the florist earn money and day where we thank people who love us. (hmmm I'm getting abit exergeratin.)

Its Monday again but today seems to pass faster then I expected. I can't really feel my monday blue today. Maybe I had past my weekend pretty well. Let me have a review on it starting with Friday, Went to a majong session again at Christopher's house. Its the opening of his majong table. Its better then his round table (of cause...) we seems to move faster then the previous round. I had Christopher to guide me and won abit at 1st but lost all in the end. The new table bring him some luck (I guess). I have now been known as the god of fortune (I kept losing for the 2 times I played with them). After this game my nguy ban me from playing majong anymore... Cause I kept losing. But then again its a game of gamble there bound to be someone who lose and someone who win. I might win the next round. The most important thing is I really enjoy playing the game.

I had a full day on Saturday, I was suppose to company my guy to buy his ripcurl wallet but I was too tire to travel to orchard. In the end he went with his sister, he was so happy after he bought it but I feel that the wallet is girly. Anyway as long as he like can, its his wallet not mine.

Next we went ot wody's new house for a house warming. He has this cool bar with the drinks. (ok I am exergerating) but its really nice. I would like to have one when I have my own house. After that we move on to have a gethering dinner with the AIO people. We had sharkfin, abalone, prawns, fish and lotz till we can't finish. Oh yeah! The most important dish is the Raw fishy, its my favourite dish during the new year. I just simply love it and I helped them to finish it all. (greedy me. haha)

After this my and my guy had to leave as we need to head to Siglap, georges to celebrate his campmate's b day. I got abit tipsy there as I had about 5 glass of the disgusting chivas with ginger ale. From there we left early again (told ya we had alot of sppointment that day), His friend came of fetch us and we went to have supper at this place in the west. Hmmmm I cant really remember where I was (as I mentioned I was tipsy), all I remember was I drank this tom yan soup that is super spicy.

Finally it come to the end of the day we manage to crawl back home had a bath. Oh yah! We did the body srub before we bath. He bought this mud scrub from NZ and its left there unused. The scrub is nice but it smell abit of clay. and the rest of the bath is ZzZZzZZzzzZzzZZzzzZZzz till the next moring.


Perhaps the feelings that we experience when we are in love represent a normal state. Being in love shows a person who he should be.

Just changed my blogskin yesterday, I kind of like this skin alot. As it is done by myself and only I am using it. haha. People... you are suppose to click on the word for navigation, not click on the pic. I'll try to adjust the Navi later on, kinda of lazy now.


I read one of the article months back on the newspaper. The topic was on the rising rate of divorces, it said something about the earning power of the ladies causing the independency and overiding of the male gender which cause the divorces. I was feeling "what the hack!" when I read this article. Yes, there is a rising rate but it does not means that its due to we women with more earning power. Does it means that if we ladies were to stay home to cook, wash and clean the divorce rate is goin to go down? I doubt so. SO I seriously think that article is all bullshit. The main reason for the high rate is due to the culture concept of the 21st century. We are no longer as conservative as the 80s/90s. Don't tell me that the mother-in-law is still going to the newly wed's bedroom to see if its stain with blood? I don't think so right? On top of that newly wed usually will stay in the hotel room.

Rather women now are more educated, they wun do the "jia ji shwei ji, jia gou shwei gou" thingy anymore. They have more choice and more sure of what they want (or rather they feel they know). For the males you guys have more open choice as ladies are more open to the relationship. This increase the temptation around them. We cant just put the blames on the ladies regarding about the increased rate. Its the culture that change thats all and everything takes 2 hands to clap.

I got on to this topic as I felt that marriage commitments are no longer that strong in this century anymore. Alot of us got married due to babies (mind you I'm not married yet), very few actually will say "hey I want to get married". While I there are some, but after those who got married, how many will stay married with each other for the rest of their lives. As a chinese saying "Marriage is the coffin of love" maybe due to our comfortable lifes we seems to take things for granted with the people around us.

For my parents right now, they are goin thorugh seperation. After 23 years of marriage, they decided its time to seperate now. Making suffer from this seperation by handling the houshold burden to me. They should have seperated long time ago but my mum said that we were young then. We (my brother and I) will suffer if they seperate early. WHat the diff since I still have to suffer now. I just can't understand my parents. From their failure I see the mistake which will cause to have no faith in marriage. Make me hate to have children and make them suffer.

Right now I just feel numb. After years and years of repeating senerio, they finally want it to come to an end. I don't know should I feel sad or should I be glad. Just hope that things will get better soon or later.

"Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command."

Kinda of having my monday blue now. From today onwards, there wouldn't be any holiday till 14th of april 2006. Another 1 month plus till then. I have to work hard as I keep telling myself "its a good job and I should treasure it." I will....

Wasn't feelin that good today. I have this thing that keep coming on my mind, "My Perfect guy". "Perfect" seems to be a very strong word as the saying goes "nothing is perfect". Then again who doesn't want to be prefect and who doesn't want a perfect man. Had this huge row with my guy yesterday night and its still on my mind. He is not the prefect man but he does try.

There is only perfect man that I feel he is. He is rich, career driven, good looking, tall and sweet tempered. People who knows me will know who I'm talking about. I have never really been into a relationship with him. So all this are just what I see as an othersider. God knows what he is like in a relationship. But i see him as my perfect guy for me. I say for me as he might only be perfect in my eyes. people have different concepts of their perfect man.

Happy Chinese New Year... Hope everyone enjoy their holidays. For its boring this year. Finaly I went to the Chun TAo He Pan this year. The place was pack and squeeze and my stupid lens came out. Stupid lens. So I cruise the place with my left eye black and right eye brown. So Ugly..... Took some photos with my bf haha... Mu cutie bf was ugly too with this busted pimple leaving a dry blood patch on this right cheek.

Suprise Surprise.... I didn't gamble this year. But I'm meeting Christopher and gang for a majong session this sat night. Hope I will big big.. haha I'm goin to wear my red tongs with my red bra. Haha.

Collected some angbaos this year but the amount is not as much as last year. Hope more to come with another few more day.

Today Darling was so nice he bought me the Zheng Yuang Chang's poster. So sweet of him as he knows I adore that guy. hehe You're the best my dear.....

Tire now.. got to sleep.... zZZzzZ