Grace Anvil Sugar Friday, September 29, 2006
I have made a choice to be alone for awhile. I am seriously lost. I can't find my way out.I am bleeding inside. It hurt so much and I cant breathe. I want neither, can someone tell me what to do? I cant seems to find the answer to my heart. I dun want to be there and neither do be I want to be here.
Someone kill me please!!!!!!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Did I mention I need some retail theraphy? I finally did it today and I am goin to KTV tml. I hope the ktv is confirm and it's jio by Eileen!! Think I am goin to strike 4D soon cause Eileen jio me go KTV leh. I hope we will manage to do that. Cause I am dread tire mentally and phyiscally.Today I bought a pair of slippers from tinkerbell. I change into it immediately, ate sakae sushi again!!! I just love the yasai miso nabei... I love veggie so that pot of thing suite me alot.
I wondering are we playing mind game? Friend told me mind game is part of our life everyday. Guys are very good at that. She warn me that I must becareful cause usually girls will not be good at that. we are tend to be more emotional, this means we follow the feelings. I guess.
I really want to be a tai tai in the future. Come come which guy can let me be 1 and I will send in my resume. haha.
I need no one. All I need is $$ so be it I want to get back what I used to be and not hang around somewhere which I cant tell if I have change or not.
I am a slut for cash!!
I need a sugar daddy!!
If u are qualify please send ur resume to needasugardaddy@yahoo.com.sg
如果你不再出现 我的世界 还有什么可贵可惜不够时间 让我们试验 什么叫永远想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎偏偏还会关切 你最后属于谁我的天空今天有点灰 我的心是个落叶的季节我不知道如何度过今夜 所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭如果你从没出现 我会不会 觉得快乐一些可惜残忍时间 总要把诺言 一点点摧毁
Feeling down today so I took another 1/2 day leave and I was already on leave yesterday. Think I really need a break from everything. Very soon I will lose control of myself if I dun take a break soon. Too many things to think about but nothing much can be done, felt trap for once. I lost myself again.
Darling has been busy working so he dun have much time to company me. Thus I got to find my own entertainment but all my entertainment are expensive. lol. Examples are ktv, sushi and not forgetting shopping. geee... all my hobbies need money. Money money can you fall off the sky and let me pick you up.
Since I am on 1/2 day leave I will go shopping alone later. All friends are working so no kakis.
I am just a little Bitch sucker who need love and attention. If u still love me, please show me some.
has things got for the better or worse? (shrug)
I need sometimes to be alone.
Love ya.
Darling has been busy working so he dun have much time to company me. Thus I got to find my own entertainment but all my entertainment are expensive. lol. Examples are ktv, sushi and not forgetting shopping. geee... all my hobbies need money. Money money can you fall off the sky and let me pick you up.
Since I am on 1/2 day leave I will go shopping alone later. All friends are working so no kakis.
I am just a little Bitch sucker who need love and attention. If u still love me, please show me some.
has things got for the better or worse? (shrug)
I need sometimes to be alone.
Love ya.
Monday, September 25, 2006
Ok I am not suppose to blog now but I am dread bored. Not because I have nothing to do on hand. I have tons of things to do right now since its the end of the month. IT the stupid weather that makin me feel lazy. For god sake why does it have to rain on MONDAY MORNING???!!!Its not as if my monday is not blue enough.
Phew for my monday though. Boss is sick and on MC this means I can slack for this monday w/o him around. Goin for majong session after work. though I am tire but I cant wait to play majong.
I haven't been playin majong since the girlie chalet. I am glad we are goin to Play the game again. Love the feel of the tiles and of cause the marnee marnee. what else!
I am goin to drag my time till knock off and relax all the way today.
Miss ya.
Friday, September 22, 2006
I realise my pouch that I put my small barang in my bag is getting small. I cant seems to squeeze my stuffs in. time to get a bigger 1 or get another 1. lol another reason for me to shop.will show my baggy stuffs tonite.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Oh gwad! I think its 80% true about me.
Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
"you cant forget your past while I cant see my future. How do we go on from here? We have a start but we need an ending"
This is a quote I found myself writing few mths ago.
Ending will come someday issit?
Was looking through the thread "Will U forgive your Partner if he/she has sex with someone else? " in ebuzz and saw this post by Pinky bear
"Because sometime shit happens..like pp went to a party and got too drunk and ended-up in bed with other or sometime, anger and confusion make pp do stupid things w/o thinking and also, it may happen coz of your desires, ur instinct (esp. male). Well, there’ a lot of reasons that cld make it happens and it probably doesn’t make any sense to us coz we’r not that person. Talking about forgiveness, can you reject? if you see the one, u love crying, dying, not eatting and begging for your forgiveness every single day for one silly mistake that they had done. If you really love them, I am sure that u will forgive them… and trust me forgiveness not always a wrong answer and sometime sex is nothing but love is everything"
This is profound.
Yah true sex maybe be nothing but love is everything. Love the is energy to push things around.
This is a quote I found myself writing few mths ago.
Ending will come someday issit?
Was looking through the thread "Will U forgive your Partner if he/she has sex with someone else? " in ebuzz and saw this post by Pinky bear
"Because sometime shit happens..like pp went to a party and got too drunk and ended-up in bed with other or sometime, anger and confusion make pp do stupid things w/o thinking and also, it may happen coz of your desires, ur instinct (esp. male). Well, there’ a lot of reasons that cld make it happens and it probably doesn’t make any sense to us coz we’r not that person. Talking about forgiveness, can you reject? if you see the one, u love crying, dying, not eatting and begging for your forgiveness every single day for one silly mistake that they had done. If you really love them, I am sure that u will forgive them… and trust me forgiveness not always a wrong answer and sometime sex is nothing but love is everything"
This is profound.
Yah true sex maybe be nothing but love is everything. Love the is energy to push things around.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Just let things be the way it suppose to be. Let the love be there. There will be a day when it will find its way out. Things has never been easy but it should move on.
Did I ever mention I love nickelback. Think I am goin to get this album soon at HMV
NICKLEBACK
"Yanking Out My..."
Feeling fine.
Let's rip out yours instead of mine.
And all you need
Are several ways to watch me bleed.
Well, thanks for stopping this beating in my chest.
It's easier now, and I'm happy like this.
Just like this.
Even though I ain't coming back now,
I didn't mean to seem as though
I was so ungreatful for for all you've done here.
For yanking out my...
Honestly.
You fuck your friends for all your needs.
And stay the course.
No, the universe ain't yours.
Well, thanks for stopping this beating in my chest.
It's easier now, and I'm happy like this.
Just like this.
Even though I ain't coming back now,
I didn't mean to seem as though
I was so ungreatful for for all you've done here.
Even though I ain't coming back now,
I didn't mean to seem as though
I was so ungreatful for for all you've done here.
For yanking out my...
If I could only see this.
If I could have one good reason.
All my feelings out of season.
Am I to thank for yanking out my...
Yanking out my... Yanking out my...
Feeling fine.
Let's rip out yours instead of mine.
And all you need
Are several ways to watch me bleed.
Well, thanks for stopping this beating in my chest.
It's easier now, and I'm happy like this.
Just like this.
Even though I ain't coming back now,
I didn't mean to seem as though
I was so ungreatful for for all you've done here.
Even though I ain't coming back now,
I didn't mean to seem as though
I was so ungreatful for for all you've done here.
For yanking out my...
For yanking out my...
NICKLEBACK
"Yanking Out My..."
Feeling fine.
Let's rip out yours instead of mine.
And all you need
Are several ways to watch me bleed.
Well, thanks for stopping this beating in my chest.
It's easier now, and I'm happy like this.
Just like this.
Even though I ain't coming back now,
I didn't mean to seem as though
I was so ungreatful for for all you've done here.
For yanking out my...
Honestly.
You fuck your friends for all your needs.
And stay the course.
No, the universe ain't yours.
Well, thanks for stopping this beating in my chest.
It's easier now, and I'm happy like this.
Just like this.
Even though I ain't coming back now,
I didn't mean to seem as though
I was so ungreatful for for all you've done here.
Even though I ain't coming back now,
I didn't mean to seem as though
I was so ungreatful for for all you've done here.
For yanking out my...
If I could only see this.
If I could have one good reason.
All my feelings out of season.
Am I to thank for yanking out my...
Yanking out my... Yanking out my...
Feeling fine.
Let's rip out yours instead of mine.
And all you need
Are several ways to watch me bleed.
Well, thanks for stopping this beating in my chest.
It's easier now, and I'm happy like this.
Just like this.
Even though I ain't coming back now,
I didn't mean to seem as though
I was so ungreatful for for all you've done here.
Even though I ain't coming back now,
I didn't mean to seem as though
I was so ungreatful for for all you've done here.
For yanking out my...
For yanking out my...
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn't all you thought it was. A beautiful girl walked into your life. You fell in love. Or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe just a brief moment of vanity.Nothing much happen these days. Just feel bitch that's all.
并不是真的路过而已
也不是真的不会想你
全都不是真的
是骗自己
其实还爱你
爱着你
我以为我早想清楚
不由自主恍恍惚惚又走回头路
再看一眼有过的幸福
爱情好象流沙
我不挣扎
让它去吧我不害怕
爱情好象流沙
心里的牵挂
不愿放下
oh baby
让我这样吧
是我太傻
一再的做
一再的错不由我
我一步一步一步一步
慢慢走上流沙
爱情好象流沙
我不说话
等待黑暗让泪眼落下
爱情好象流沙
明知该躲它
无法自拔
oh baby
是我太傻
Thursday, September 14, 2006
These days the old memories keep flashing back and out of my control. I get emotional easily when they flash back. I hate the feeling.I have my baby now. I know I really love him alot. He really dote on me and sometimes spoilt me which is not what any guys could do it. I am very sure he is the guy that I want to get married with. I have nv been so sure in my life that I want to spend the rest of my life with someone. He always say that he would want to marry me but I hope he is really true about it.
I have changed alot over time because of him. I used to be the sticky kinda of Gf who like to stick ard him and take up all his time but now I don't anymore. I only get to meet him like once a week or maybe 2-3 times a week. He is such a workaholic and he work all his time away. Its not that I am complaining but sometimes I wish I can see him more often.
If I was not that sticky back than maybe we will still be happy now. you were once my dream guy and u r still minus ur flirt. Just that I feel lost when I face you. I seems to lost myself whenever you appear. You made me cry many times but still I once love you in the deep of my heart. Now maybe its just a passing phase for me.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
终于明白你已变成回忆 没有言语能够说明当别人问起谱了一段旋律没有句点 也无法再继续
像埋伏在街头的某种气息 无意间经过把往日笑与泪勾起
忽然心痛的无法再压抑 原来从未忘记
Melody 脑海中的旋律转个不停 爱过你 有太多话忘了要告诉你
Melody 无数动人音符在我生命 爱过你 失去你我才知道要珍惜
当时无法为你写的那首歌 却是我永远的遗憾当爱逝去
如果所有的错重来一次 能否改变结局
终于落下休止符的那首歌 我听着每一个音符流过的回忆
为什么在那么多年以后 还不能说再见
Melody 脑海中的旋律如此熟悉 爱过你 在我心里只能轻轻叹息
Melody 无数动人音符在我生命 爱过你 失去你我才知道要珍惜
Melody oh Melody 我永远不能忘记
你是多么的美丽 让这音乐一直不停响起
Melody oh Melody 我舍不得去忘记
我们快乐的过去 请别让我从这梦境清醒
Melody 脑海中的旋律如此熟悉
爱着你 求你听我唱完这一段旋律 请不要离去
Melody 你是在我脑海不停的旋律 爱过你 我的心里只能无言叹息
Melody 无数动人音符在生命里 爱过你 失去后我才知道要珍惜你
When I see you I always felt happy and safe. I nv regret having you in my Life your chest is my support and my hidout. Love every bit of ur smile.
My confusion has found its way out.
Friday, September 08, 2006
I asked "you if time was to turn back will you still let me go?". You told me "No... cos after letting you go I regret.. you are a good gf that listen to Bf... but I neglected you that time.. its my loss"This is the answer I have been waiting for years but I only get to hear it now. Its abit late isn't it?
If you had told me 2 years back I would be delight but now I have my own commitment.
I believe if things were to turn back it will be different but I cant turn back time neither can you.
I still remember that you use to call me Bi and like to peck me on my forehead like a little girl.
The relationship after you i still get my bf to call me Bi cause I want to be remind of you.
All these will be kept as memories deep in my heart. Thanks for all the wonderful memories you left in me.