Have u ever start to feel the fear when a guy's family start to accept you as part of the family?

I am feeling that now. Baby's family still dun know what happen between us. His sister is goin over to wales for long stay so they decided to take a family portrait and guess what!!! His mum ask me to go. Goshhhh... I was abit shock. erm not abit but very very. This is the first time I am feel so sad that the family actually treat me like one of them. 1stly we are not officially back together and I wun confirm marry him lor.

Haiz... baby treat me really nice leh. Yesterday he actually buy my dinner and tabao over to my house. Cause I was too tire to go out and get my own and too lazy to cook. I sleep only like 6 hours for the past 2 days. Having insomnia I think, not sure why. I have been sleep at 4-6 am in the morning and woke up ard 8++. Turning zombie soon. lol

Baby is really really nice to me. I don't understand why I am not touch which I am suppose to be. Of cause I do feel happy and comfortable with him. I always hold his hands and hug him when I feel like. But still...... I am not sure what I am thinking either.

I realise I am locking myself in a cell. To keep myself away from hurt or rather the potential hurt I might get. Sick of guys breaking my heart. Sick of having a bf either. I dunno what I want la. Just want to be me I guess. But I lost the "me" i am suppose to know or have.

Tire of the game call love. I rest my case.