Wednesday, October 04, 2006
I am feel so hurt now. I don't know what to say. i promise not to cry but I still did in the end. I dun know why I have to end things this way. I lost the control over myself again and again. Just because of him.I dun even know why he is so impt to me. These years had past but still he is still so strong embeded in my heart. I cant seems to smooth out whatever mark.
Blue told me once bitten twice shy. I should have learn my lesson now. She told me that I will be losing in an emotional game. I guess I really lost this time.
For the 1st time in my life I actually scream and be firm on my decision, nv had I chose to be so firm about it. I really want to stop all these love thingy. It sux. I totlally hate it. I dun want to play it anymore. I just want to be a slut that flirt around. I just want to be that.
I am stupid and I hate myself. I will lock my blog up soon. can anyone teach me how ar? lol.
Sugar will try to be happy and happy. Sugar will always be pretty and cute. Sugar will be love one day. Sugar will marry someone that truely love me and only me. Sugar will miss you for the rest of her life. Sugar will remember this too. Sugar is hurt.......









