I have calm down alot over these days. Getting angry over certain things is of no use. I have to live on with what I have and had happen. I really regret letting you go that night but it has already happen so there's nothing I can do.

Things got better for me. At least I have him to care of me, making sure that I am ok. Fainted the other day, lucky he came over to my house to find me if not think no one will know that I faint. He is my hero.

After this incident I realise being too nice will nv get far. I will learn to be selfish just like you and her. I have done so much for you since you chose her than is your loss cause no other girls will do as much as I did for you.

If one day our path ever cross again than you return me the money ba. If we nv than take it as a lesson that I paid. If you ever get married let me know I will still give you a big ang bao but like what you said before I wun go for the wedding dinner. I dun want to be a wedding crusher. haha.

This song is by Pan Wei Bo 谢谢. The whole lyrics are saying what I want to say.
黄昏下的琴键太寂寞
来来去去只剩很拙的双手
陪着固执的我
不停弹奏不停地犯错
想起他为你唱歌时的温柔
我会笑着难过
他能给你保护　代替我的照顾
这是我最后的祝福

＊谢谢你的结束　冷却后的残酷
　谢谢你的知足　告诉我别再付出
　谢谢你的温度　记忆留在最初
谢谢你曾让我　幸福

不停唱着愈来愈清楚
想起你看他眼神中的满足
我学会了服输
他能给你保护　代替我的照顾
我只能偷偷地　为你祝福

repeat＊
谢谢你曾经让我　幸福

想着手心的感触
想着脸颊的温度
谢谢你那些年　为我付出

repeat＊
谢谢你曾让我们　幸福

I think I have really lost my coolness for the past few days. After I fainted that day I realise there is alot of things which I still want to complete in my life. You are not the one thing that I have in my life. I have tons of people who really do care for me. You are just some useless guy that cannt make decision and have to be lead by some girl. Sorry to say that but I really feel you are like that. If one day you grow up I will be happy for you and I will love you the same.

I will learn to take back my feelings. I love you once that why I am willing to do alot of things for you. I love you but I dun need to keep you by my side. You dont appreciate what I did and treasure it, than there is nothing I can do. I have tried my best and I wun have regrets on you.

I really hate the word "sorry" cause the words is so cheap that it really worth nothing. If you are really sorry than you should show it. Thus whatever sorry you and her had said I wun take it. I have show that I am really sorry by not pressuring you anymore. I will leave you alone.

once again our relationship end up crying and mess. If we ever cross again I hope we will learn from mistake. You still owe me one KTV session and movie be it one day we will do these as friends or we will never have a chance. You still owe me that. =)

I will go to NO.5 next week. Haha the place where you pick her up that night. Hope I wun be too drunk. If I ever call you at night pls dun pick up my call. I will be saying some drunk things which I dun mean it.

This will be my last post that I mention about this short relationship. I will put the past behind and live as usual. Hope this will make you feel better ba. Blame it on my feeling that I can help but to do things for you and ur feeling always come 1st. Like I mention earlier I will learn to be more selfish and think for myself rather than ur feelings.

I know you will read my blog. I cant promise that I will wait for you but I think I will at least till one day you get married or another someone that pass by and really take my heart away.