Yeah I finally get my photos for the photoshoot.
of cos the photos photos .............

[Sugar]: For better or for worse. Wonder can i still attract. hmmmm *sleep*

I am now considering closing down my blog. cause I think I gave too many ppl my url. Suddenly feel constraint on the things that I can blog here.
Cause there are a handful of people whom I dun want to share my tots with.
Hmmmm but I like my blog name leh. =( what should I do wor. and keeping 2 blogs is troublesome to login here and there. sian. Sorry ar forget to add. Sugar is a lazy girl.

Went to Hk cafe again with Lev, Gil and Scan. As usual we ate but this time we only eat the desert. As usual talk tok till Lev's bf come and fetch her. So good hor. nex time find a bf must find one wu car de. lol. lagi best if he wu money, wu car, wu house and wu looks of cause not forgetting the height la. *LOL* Later I go dream about it la. I know even if have also bo my chance. Gil also wu scanny to fetch her. when will be my turn. But of cause I would prefer to own my own car.

Anyway I am getting fatter each day. He even want to use my photo to ward off evil leh. wah i realise now he damn evil to me lor. Don't know if he is trying to hide his feelings or what. But who cares la he is just a friend to me. Cause I promise I will fall for a fat guy. I like guys who are tall (180 and above) and macho. make me feel secure la. *Grin*. That why I was inlove with baby for 2 years +++ cause he is tall (190) and macho (not really la but big size). lol.

I think I really having the habit of sleeping late which is not good for my body.
my dark rings are all showing out. *gheez*
Will be meetin Baby later. hmmmmm he is still angry. See how ba. Kinda of sian to quarrel.

[Sugar]: If only candy could make ma happy.

You just said the worst thing you could ever say
Well, I don't understand why it just can't be this way
I'm crying because of you
I hate, yes I hate all your lies
I'm so scared
And I fear what I see in your eyes
But I hope, and I dream, and I wish, and I pray
That you have some love left for me
Do you have some love left for me?
You just did the worst thing you could ever do to me
Well, I don't understand why and I cannot see
That it's hurting because of you
Do you have some love left for me?
I hate, yes I hate all your lies
I'm so scared
And I fear what I see in your eyes
(you don't feel anything)
But I hope, and I dream, and I wish, and I pray
That you have some love left for me
Do you have some love left for me?

Baby is jealous for once. He is really jealous. I am not sure why but for the 1st time he actually show me that he is jealous and throwing his temper. Should I be happy or troubled? In the past he nv say anything when i go out with guys, he nv check my Hp or my computer. But now he do. Guess he don't trust me like he used to. Hmmmm I deserve it la. I am not complaining but somehow I feel strange.

Guys Guys Guys!
I don't understand what they want. Some told me all they want is to have a nice gf to be by their side yet when they have one they dun treasure. opppss... am I talking about myself?

If I were to fall, will you be there to catch me? I guess not. I am not worth the effort but I am ok with it. Cause I know where I stand. I may be a diamond in another's eyes but not yours. If only I can turn back the time be strong on my feelings. I guess it will never happen.

Things have gotta out of hands for both of us. We have lost the feelings we should have. Somehow I can only blame myself. Feel useless and it hurts. There's too many "If" in our life. I want a comfirmation instead.

I am really lost. SO lost I dun even know where I stand. I dun even know what I should do next. I dun even know if I can survive alone now. I am so scare. I cannt differentiate what's the truth and what's the lies. When I feel its true I realise its not.

When I look into the mirror now I cant believe that's me. I mean I used to be so strong and I dun cry easily over some guy. Yet I am always crying now. I really hate myself, you and you. Can anyone make me feel better?

Buzz off if you intend to lie.

I am goin back to my pills soon once I am fully recovered. Cause my face popping out acne. *cry* somemore not one but 4. Argh..... i miss my pills, I promise to eat them regularly. I wun skip I learn my lesson well and hard.

[Sugar]: It means nothing to say I love you unless you say it with your heart.

Should I cut my hair short? I have been thinking that my long hair is getting boring. hmm maybe i should try. hehe. I will browse around for short hair style.

A horse and a chicken are playing in a meadow. The horse falls into a mud hole and is sinking. He calls to the chicken to go and get the farmer to help pull him out to safety. The chicken runs to the farmer but the farmer can't be found. So he drives the farmer's BMW 328i back to the mud hole and ties some rope around the bumper. He then throws the other end of the rope to his friend, the horse, and drives forward saving him from sinking. A few days later, the chicken and the horse were playing in the meadow again.

This time the chicken fell in the mud hole. The chicken yelled to the horse to go and get some help from the farmer. The horse said, "I think I can stand over the hole." So he stretched over the width of the hole and said "grab my 'thing' and pull yourself up." And the chicken did and pulled himself to safety.


The moral of the story:
"If you have a "Thing" like a horse, you don't need a BMW 328i to pick up chicks".
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What's with the big thing. I prefer the BMW. LOL. Do the thing matter if you are poor like shit? Sorry I think I am more realistic cause I cannt feed on the thing itself.

Was talking to Baby last night. than he mentioned abt our friend's Mazada 121. He said that car is so old, not performing well, giving alot of problem and he keep pumping money in to fix the car. On top of that he said it high fuel comsuption. but still the whole family love that car. HE suggest that they should change a car instead.

After that he turn ard and say "Hey that car like you sia." I was like =..=!.

He say that I am spendthrift and he always spend on me. which means I am high mantaince and I eat lot. SO he trying to say he should change me lor. whatever.... Change me ba I dun mind de.

I hate it when someone nag abt how i spend money. I know I am spendthrift But I like to eat and buy clothes. issit that what all girls do?

I think that I have cut down alot le. I havent been spreeing online anymore. I mean issit that good? Anyway I am so sick of having a bf. Maybe I should stick to what I feel remain single.

[Sugar]: Love is to overcome everything so are we inlove ot just for the sake of companion?

Just met up with Levyne, kailin, Gilda, Scan, Mingyang, Chris and Ling Jian. Had a good luff. lol. kailin's bf (Chris) Is damn cock lor. Really enjoy on their lame jokes. lol.



Me and Baby are so into scrabbles now. We keep fighting see who has the better vocab. lol. Anyway we went to Hongkong cafe today. Eat till I shiok sia. though the food are expensive but nice. hehe.



Next week I am goin to kep my photoshoot's photo. so excited. lol. When I get it I am goin to post.



The vain me with Levyne's sunglasses.

I am a sexy kitten eh. LOL. I love to act seductive. what can you do about it. I think I want to buy this glasses. cause quite nice wor. hehe. I think I have abt 4 pairs of sunglasses le But I dun wear them out. haha. Only wear them to take photos. lol.


Baby say that he really love me today. So those who think of otherwise please get lost. Thank you.

Anyway I have started my secret blog. And so far only 1 person has the access to it. Posted 2 entries le. haha Anyone gian to see? If you want to read that blog you have to ask me la.


[Sugar]: If you can take it from me then I let you take it. I wouldn't be a sore loser.

I start another blog. hehe. That will be my secret blog and all abt the inner tots of mine. I can post whatever I want. As in things that I cannt post here. I realise that there are a number of people who are reading my blog. And say something about it. In order not to let u have the sore eye I am not blogging certain things there.

What someone said is right. If we don't like what others say than dun show it to them. So I am keeping away things I dun want her to see.

Miss my baby alot alot. He always pat pat my head to sleep. so sweet. I love it. hehe.

Baby is goin to be busy for the whole month. I wun be able to see him often and I am very sad. =(

I am a flirt that nv change her spot. I dun give a damn abt what other think of me. I am bitch and I bite. I dun care if you are married or attach. I dun give a bloody damn about it!! I play my game the way I want it. I dun give a shit if I am attach.

If you give me money, I will be your little kitten. Cant you see the money sign on my face? So what if I am cheap. If it bothers you than dun bother to look at me. I dun mind abt that.

Sugar aint no angel. I dun act like I am one. I dun pretend I am one either. I dun want to live in pretence like someone I know. I dun keep my feelings. I cry when I like, I kiss when I like, I fuck when I like. You don't have to tell me things. Just keep ur mouth shut if you dun know me. Keep your comments to yourself. I dun need to know. I dun need you to teach me to be a "nice" girl.

Please please dun pretend you know me very well. Like you know me inside out. Dun say you know me and I am not like that. The fact is I AM BITCH. BUT SO WHAT???!! Sugar is pissed abt you. I am Sugar but I am not sweet. Get it. name is just a name. "What's in a name? that which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet ". Oh pls dun tigger my temper. you wun like it.

[Sugar]: Sugar aint no angel! Time will change how I feel abt love. Does it change urs too?

Baby is snoring now.

Me with my magazine and nightie

baby has his wisdom tooth so sad wor. Went to the dentist the other day. lol and take photo. lol He say I damn siao.

All the Mrs pls dun envy me hor. lol..... (joking dun throw stones at me)

OHHHHH GAWD~~~~ my office internet is down ehhh. so sian cannt use internet the whole day. nearly die in office. lol



That day Gil and Scan came to meet me for lunch. They went to service their love car near my work place. lol. They are so funny sia.

the babes. lol.=x

our funny convo in msn

Yours Faithfully, Mrs Tang. says:
i told my mom ystd also

[Sugar]: Your love poison is pumping through my veins says:
than what ur mummy say?

Yours Faithfully, Mrs Tang. says:
she say "aiyo, dun anyhow ah"

Yours Faithfully, Mrs Tang. says:
lol

[Sugar]: Your love poison is pumping through my veins says:
lol

[Sugar]: Your love poison is pumping through my veins says:
u tell her

[Sugar]: Your love poison is pumping through my veins says:
I will use condom de dun worry'

[Sugar]: Your love poison is pumping through my veins says:
ur dotter very safety de

[Sugar]: Your love poison is pumping through my veins says:
lol

Yours Faithfully, Mrs Tang. says:
lol

Yours Faithfully, Mrs Tang. says:
she will faint

I cannt imagine if my dotter will reply me this way. scary.

I am eating japan curry rice now. Super nice. one of my fav. somemore home cook de. Sugar can cook okie. lalalala. Envy ba. Baby can eat my food food. but he say he want to dip with bread instead. I was like "duhz" cause japo curry not spicy de. hmmm the photo dun justify the taste. look abit lao sai. lol

[Sugar]: 因为你的出现 让我知道爱情的美 因为你的离开 教我如何坚强面对

I fail my theory test again. shit la. the dream of having a car is so far from me~~~ Maybe I am destiny to get a car who can come and drive me. lol (真没用）. I am attach to the cabby uncle. lol. Sian la. all I want is to get my Lic but its like so difficult lor. haiz.

I change my playing song again 爱死你。 I like this song. haha. I like Karen mok singing this soft rock.

Baby say nvm that I fail he will go get his Lic and buy a car then drive me instead. so sweet hor. BUT he havent even start his BT yet how to get a car sia. =..= I dunno have to wait till when lor. He has the same liking for toyota Vios haha. Same as me dun like honda city and lancer cause lancer "eat" fuel and city look like a loaf of bread lol. thats what we think la. If can he say he want to buy altis but i say we can get something cheap 1st lor. lol. BUT still we dun have a lic yet. sian sian sian.

[Sugar]: Life's a struggle.

Loving you is not easy but still I chose to open myself to another theat that i might face. Love is nv predictable. I know that I have to love him for all the things he done for me. Though I know there is someone else in my heart for maybe the rest of my life. I still to chose to lock that person up my heart. I have to move on somehow. I am glad its you that I chose to mvoe on with. The little things you did for me really touch me greatly. Baby all I want to say is that I am greatful. We might not walk through together for the rest of our life. As for now I have you and I am contend with it. You took me back without any request. you still place your trust which u place before. Just hope you wun repeat ur mistake and I wun repeat mine.

The mini muffins I bought for you.

The man that bring to heaven and know what is love. The man that catch me when I fall. The man that lend me his shoulder when I need to rest or cry. the man that hug me tight when I need sercurity. The man of my life.

[Sugar]: The love we dream of will never be real but most important is the faith we maybe looking for the rest of our life.

Finally my photoshoot is over. I fall asleep immediately after I reach baby's place. My whole bady is aching like hell. 12 hrs of photoshoot. omg. I think I need more exercise. cause my arms are not strong to do some pose. Anyway I had fun yesterday. Did some semi nude photo. lol. cant wait to see.

Finally the bed is here but i havent clear my room. maybe i will do it tonite with baby when he pop over.

All I need now is to sleep. I miss the feeling of you having the hunger to hold on to me. Love baby.

[Sugar]: today I am empty.

Backdate:

Baby's sister went to wales le. So sad. He said that next year we will go and visit her. Hehe. That means I can go to wales la!!!! I am so happy. Can visit Mika too. If I get my lic I can rent a car too. Than can drive around there. If we were to go we will spend about 1 week there. Most prob staying over at his sister's house. HoHo. so excited.

I am officially attached to my baby. *chu* darling. You are the best of all. Throughout the whole thing you nv call me a bitch. You still love me as much or rather you showed more attention to me than ever. I simply love everything you did for me. I cant be more bless to have you in my life. I have just fallen back in love with you again. Love every peck of ur kisses and hugs. We start afresh from a clean new sheet. whatever happen in the future I wun know but I know what I have now is the best so far.

Will change my number soon le. I will sms those whom I still want to keep in contact. =)

[Sugar]: Is it just a moment of vanity or the pure love of condolence.

Oh gosh..... its less than 2 days till my photoshoot. I have get anything done. like my medicure and pedi, wax my legs, pluck my eyebrow and pack the bag. sian. So sian.

Not angry with baby anymore. hehe. baby will always be mine baby. for better or for worse he is always by my side. Where in the world can I find this type of guy. Though he and me did something wrong. but my mistake is far more than what the norm guy can take. yet he take it. and forgive me, stay by my side.

Though I cannt say I completely forget abt the recent happen but I will try to get out of the pit. I am quite bliss with all the attention you gave me. I am sure one day we will find what we want in life.

[Sugar]: When love found the habour for deport. It wouldn't stay long. It need to continue for its journey.

I love ya.